Well i've done my part and all i can say now is that i thank god really am for making me strong and making me talk to bhy face to face to make things clear. Alhamdullilah i thank allah seriously. Allah make me think not to give up on him too easily and Allah make him realize how much i love him and yet we are back together. I guess if i'm not begging him , not asking him why , we won't end up patching things up by now yet we're moving on with our solo life. I don't want that to happen . Now i know my biggest fear is losing him. Sorry bay for being such an ego throughout this whole time with you. I never realize that i'm hurting you in silent. I know there's a part that its my fault and a part its yours. I really hope this won't happen anymore. I don't want any other bhy please. If i do i won't be choosing you in the first place and i would rather leave you last time to what you've done to me before . But yet i'm staying by your side always even i'm deeply hurt sometimes. I sound so stupid but i don't know why you make me love blind and make my heart can't continue with other guys. I just want you i swear. Please don't leave me again. I know i did ask you for breakup before , but i think but and rather choose to stay by your side cause i really love you. I hope after this you feel the same way too and love me as much as i love you . 

Happy 11 monthsary sayang . Meet you later (: