Every smile i give , will have that anger in me , patience in me and also tears in me .

I fucking dont know what else to do but they say i should move on and some people say too i should wait till he come back .

I'm speechless again . I don't know who to talk to . Its like i'm going through this all alone.

I dont know why im acting this way . I should be happy . I should know whats right and wrong . But im selfish . I believe he can change . But he hurt me again . Yet im still loving me, find him eventhough he ignore me. Why liya why ?

Why cant i just be happy with a guy that i love ? ):

Seriously the way he treat me now , makes me looking forward to know whats wrong have i done to him when actually IM THE ONE who have been patience in this relationship for years already .

But he keep on blaming me . He didnt even support me . Didnt even give me goodnight message or goodmorning message .

If he really care , he will do that to me .

I love him so much till it hurts. Seriously . 

I know i can have a better life after this but i just want him . So stupid sia liya . ):