I dont care.

INI LAH MUKE I KALAU TAK PAKAI MAKEUP! BURUK KAY BYE.

Work with mama was so fucking frustrated. I don't even eat my breakfast , lunch or dinner. I don't even have an appetite. All i want is ciggy but too bad i can't smokey there. I don't even concentrate to do my work. My mind is all about him him him .

Yeah two guy's ask my number. Yes the truth i give it to one of them. Cause i feel like seeking revenge & when i think back time , i'm not liya who love to revenge. And so by then i ignore his message. I guess, even i'm hurt this deep , i don't even have the thought's to contact other stranger. It's okay , Its alright being lonely cause all you feel when you're lonely is , peaceful .

Oh yah , my eyes are swollen and i feel like crying kay when i was there. But i don't want to cry cause i don't want to disappoint mama so i just let the tear's burst when i was at home. But when we were otw home in the car, i suddenly cry. I can't stand it no more till mama ask me why. See, i disappoint her lah ): I'm sorry mama. But yet , i do tell her what's happening & you know what she said ?

"Liya , you don't have to jump into conclusion. Understand him , let him burst out all the thing he wanted to tell you. There's a reason behind every problem's. Try talk to him slowly. Tkmu buat decision tergesa-gesa. Lelaki ni memang suke contact pmpn ramai cuma dalam hati dier cinta satu wanita tapi suka ramai wanita. Memang betul its unfair for a girl like you seating down there doing nothing. Lelaki ni tak suke kalau matey dher cntct laki lain sebab pade dorang kau lah milik dia. Tapi kalau part lelaki nak contact pmpn lain dorang bebas. Tkmu kongkong dia liya. Understand him. You guys are just attached , ape lagy kahwin nanty ? Kalau kahwin lain cyter lah . Lelaki boleh kahwin lebih dari satu wanita. Ingat liya , ni semua cinta monyet. Ader lelaki nampak wanita lawa , die terus tinggal kan kau. Jangan terlalu percaya tapi paham hati dan perasaan die. Maybe wanita tu adeq angkat die. Die call tkde niat pape. What if adik call fydy setakat tanya soalan ? Ader niat pape tak ? Tkde kan ? Best woman win liya. Percayalah , thing's will be better soon. Seat down and talk slowly. Mama dengan ayah berkenan dengan tu fahmi. If he love you , he will find you kay ? Dah tkmu nangis. Mama sedih tengok adik tersedu-sedu gini. Semalam adik dengan die okay okay sampai datang rumah semua skg dah gaduh."

I swear ini lah kali pertama i talk thing's with mama about my love problem and mama kasi i advice. Kali pertama okay . Thanks mama . I love you & sorry for disappoint you. 

Thank's to dean cullen for the advice too. Thanks to nana & catmeow too.

Besok i nak merayap sorang sorang since semua tak free kan ? Best ah . Byeee.